Today (January 8th, 2010) I started to realize how screwed up my life is. I've lived out my past wanting and trying to be something that I'm not. I never really had an explanation of who I was or what i wanted in life. I figured everything would just play out, I would graduate from school, get a job, hopefully one day find the girl I'm going to spend the rest of my life with, and just grow old happy with the people I love. I mean don't get me wrong, I want these things. As awesome as that sounds, I want more. Today, as ironically as it could be, I hungered for a relationship that I have truly never pursued. I've always just walked the walk and had my ups and downs as I thought any normal person would, but today I wanted it! Today I realized how my temptations control my life and how my convictions throw me deeper into my temptations. I'm through trying to just get by and saying to myself its ok. I want to change.
Sadly, I feel like I have more to say but not the right words to put them into anytime of archive. I don't know how many people will actually read this or even care, but I plan on this being more of a photo blog than anything.
